因为普通的缘故。
1、日子淡的毫无奇迹可言。
每次点开博客都在心里默念:这次一定要写一个长些的,不管好看不好看都要写多点。可当双手落在键盘上的时候又什么都不想写了,十根指头瞬间被冻住了一样,根本上也没什么好写的,反正写了也是废话连篇……于是每次照例贴几张歪瓜劣枣的图,再当搬运工搬来MV无形中免费给人家音乐网站做广告草草收场敷衍了事。因此,留在这里的流水账基本连我自己都不会看。对我来说,写长博客为了完成某种仪式似的。打个不恰当的比方:就好像每个人吃了饭就要拉粑粑一样天经地义不需要解释,把活着整成了某项强制列入的任务。然而,有个声音在一边告诉我,事实就是这样啊,解释啥子,你娃有毛病!
2、风华的诗和他的人一样干练。
活的诗人见过几个,但都和我原先想的样子不太像。想象中的诗人,戴圆圈眼镜,头发浮了一层油,发丝拧巴在一起,长甩甩的耷拉在脑壳上面,抽烟很凶,右手中指和食指的前面部分长年累月沾满过分的烟草焦油。三天两头站在江边,哎呀,哎呀的叹气!如果是大冬天,可能还会穿中式长衫,短袄子一类的棉布衣裳,颈子上面拴的是粗毛线围巾,前边吊起一块,后背被风吹起一块,好不拉轰~~~说这么多,太扯了。诗人真是邋遢,无序,没有节制的样子吗?其实不都是这样的,譬如风华。
我严重怀疑,这个年代,还有正儿八经的职业诗人,不赖其他,专门靠写诗维生。但事实上,可能就有一些人专门好这一口,活着,为兴趣,说难非常难,说简单也是满简单的,但都需要莫大的勇气。风华的新生活,就是从他以写字为主要乐趣开始的。这大家都知道,俺实在是佩服的很。
前几天,忘了在哪里看到一段话:“诗人在短短几行字里用符号、隐喻和直喻制造出感情的冲击。诗歌可能需要读者费点心思去琢磨它的含义——但是对许多人来说,乐趣也正是在琢磨的过程中。如果你乐意,可以把诗歌比作一个文字游戏。不是所有人都喜欢这个游戏,但是你玩得越多它就越容易。我现在就在用一个直喻来说明我的观点。这些文学手法可以被用来扩展摄影师的视觉语言,我们可以使用一些不仅只具有表面含义的图像。我们的世界充满了符号。将内容并置(精心将一件东西摆在另一件东西旁边)可以非同寻常地改变它的含义。我们不一定要真的把一件东西拿起来放在另一件旁边,也可以挪动脚步,直到不同的主体同时出现在取景框里。”抄在这里凑字数,是想说,看风华的诗,就跟看画儿一样,整体轻轻松松的,有些篇幅个人觉得很有趣,好看。
3、越耍越懒,这就是动物性
推荐一个老电影,昨天晚上看的,叫《简单西蒙 I rymden finns inga känslor (2010)》,故事真的非常简单,蛮好玩的,难道真的是:神经病人思维广,弱智儿童欢乐多么。
另外,我喜欢一个冰岛乐队好几年了,他们叫胜利玫瑰,每次重听,瞬间觉得生命是安静的,今次贴来玩。
PS,想了一下严肃的问题,关于生存和生活的。如果是打工,生存怎么都不成问题,如果把这种生存也叫做生活的话,那生活也没问题。但是,假如打工持续下去,我想要玩的很多好玩的事情就没有办法做,因为我想玩的高级一点,高级一点就需要好多钱,这个需要好多钱不是真的需要好多钱,起码不能让妈妈饿肚子我自己自私的各种玩去嘛,对吧。。。所以,好多钱这件事,纯粹靠打工是赚不来的,撑死了也就是生存生活状态。我不贪心的呀,只是想玩的好玩点嘛,无论怎样都要高兴不是,呼气吸气呼气吸气,,,老是自己跟自己斗争,不好玩。最后,祝我好运。
我在等一场大雪,将世界洗白。
这些天,北京冷的着实有些遭不住。有些瞬间就那样想起了南方,我还是没有从蜷缩的被窝里走出来,站到墙边往下看。四下里有汽车开过的声音,刮着地面刺耳的呼啸。卧室门不是特别合缝,冷风钻进来的机会更多了一些。我看了一个又一个的电影,始终不舍得睡去,肚子饿了,跑去厨房,没有可以下嘴的食物,生冷的菜刀摆在灶台上,隐约有寒气的凌厉折射过来。我就那样缩手缩脚的走回来,茶几上,几个坚韧的猕猴桃,酸的无法下咽,母亲就在隔壁,有节奏的扯着鼾声,我怕吵醒她。
转念一想,许多时候,我们以为自己特别能吃苦,其实都是在自讨苦吃。譬如晚饭时间觉得不够饿于是放弃吃饭这件事。这世上所有事情都是有期限的,譬如此刻涌上心头那一丁点矫情的忧伤,而大半夜的饥寒交迫,也将在天亮之后结束。所以,小宝乖,快睡吧,即便明天不会变得更好。
就仍那世界里风大雨大,我且北在北方。
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